Growing Up!!

I know that this is supposed to be about my dating adventures but I had to post these pictures of my baby from today. She went to Senior Prom and she was breathtaking!

Cinnamon Challenge!

So my daughter and me decided to do the Cinnamon Challenge. You have to watch to see the outcome! Be prepared to laugh. This is just a little insight to the things that we do in our home when we are bored.

HO...HUMMM!!!

OK, so I have not been blogging and today I thought that I would come on to say that I have nothing interesting to say. I haven't been out and I haven't done anything interesting. 

The kids however are doing great. 17 year old is graduating highschool,19 year old is finishing up his freshman year of college, 6 year old got accepted into the best school in CT, and the 4 year got accepted into a really good public school here. Now looking  for a new place to live and I'm taking my mom with me, which will take my life to another level. 

I will check in with you guys this week. 

Back in the habit...

So, I've made a promise to go out and for the month of March I did go out twice. I wasn't doing the things that I thought that I would do but I did go out. For my birthday my friends decided that I needed to go out and have a blast. Being that the both of them are lawyers I thought that it would be a mild night. We started off at dinner and I had 3 drinks. Got to the club and it all went down hill from there. I was in the club for all of 10 minutes as I was stopped at the bar to partake in 5 shot of patron and 3 shots of Hennessy Black. I was good until the Long Island Iced Tea(I think that was what it was). I was feeling good. I gave security a lap dance(so I was told) and I decided to Wobble. Couldn't do that dance for shit!!! At midnight, I remember a blue drink. That's it!!! I had a blue drink. How can two people with Law Diplomas (lol) do this to me. I woke up to an apology on FB from one of them to the DJ's, bartenders and security.
I went out again last week. Had so much fun. Wasn't as drunk and the wobble was on point!!!

Now I'm looking forward to meeting some new friends (male) and go out on some dates. I'm making strides to get back in the habit of taking time out to have fun and date!

Gone but not forgotten...

I had been in a somber mood. The man that I married when I was 20 years old and stayed married to him until I was 28, passed away. And I started a new job so I have been just a little busy. I will be updating my blog again soon. I hope that I have something interesting to say and that you guys want to hear what I want to say. I will be with you guys momentarily because I have a little story to tell about my trip to Atlanta :)

Friday Night Lights...OUT!

Last night was the first Friday of the month and I was supposed to be building onto my social life. Well that didn't happen. I was home. I had to run some errands that took nearly 3 hours after my work day. Call me old but after that I was too pooped to party. I have got to do better. I have been looking online and in the paper to see what I could be doing for extra curricular activities. Monday nights there is a Love Jones Poetry Slam at a lounge that I have been dying to try.  I will be going next Monday but last night the lights were out! I have nothing to report and nothing to discuss. I fell asleep in the middle of the bed with my laptop,a satin bonnet on my head and Four Weddings on TV. Next Friday will be better!

Four years before I see this day again...

Today was just an ordinary day with the exception of us never seeing this day again until 2016. Yeah it's Leap Year in case you didn't know. What does this mean to me? Absolutely nothing except for the fact that I will be 39 in 26 days.YAY!!! Which gets me to thinking about what I want to do for my special day. I'm not so sure yet but I'm pretty sure that I will let you guys know.

Nothing special happened. The kids had an early dismissal due to a 'snow storm' which meant that we were in the house all day together. They donned on their tutus and played barbies all day,somehow I was forced to join in on the fun. 

I am getting myself prepared for the month of March to experience hitting the town of Hartford alone. Yipee! I think that it should be fun. I promise to keep an open mind and try to have fun. I mean, I know how to have fun but I've never had it alone, in Connecticut. I will spruce myself up,apply my Oh Baby and get it cracking(haha). I will try to meet men and women. The women so that I can find people to possibly go out with and find other venues to attend and the men,well that should be self explanatory. The last time that I went to a club there was a man there with an ass backwards haircut. No hair in the front but hair in the back around the neck line and around his ears. I can't keep an open mind about that though. And let me not forget the man walking around with the red,white and blue ribbon with a medallion around his neck. He said it was because he wanted to be in a band and when I looked closely to it it had a trumpet,music book and drum on it. Really? You came to the club like that? I'm just hoping to meet interesting yet sane people. 

Good Night my lovies and I will font,I so stole that :),you tomorrow!

Out the Mouth of Babes...

We were driving in the car today and my 6 year old asked me why I didn't have a boyfriend. I didn't know how to answer that because I didn't want to get too deep with a 6 year old. I simply said because I don't. But it got me to thinking about why I don't have a boyfriend. I made a list:

1. I haven't found anyone that I wanted to get close to.
2. My last boyfriend made me skeptical of a relationship.
3. I'm afraid of introducing anyone to my kids again.
4. I don't want someone thinking that my kids want/need a father.
5. I think I snore.
6. I have horrible sleep habits.
7. I'm super independent.
8. I can't tolerate BS.
9. Men get on my nerves after 30 days.
10. I'm not ready                                  

So looking over this list, I got mad. Why in the hell is my 6 year old questioning me about my social life? I asked her and she said 'well my daddy has a girlfriend but you don't have a boyfriend'. I don't want to just have a boyfriend though. I'm too old for that crap. I will be 40 next year and I was once married. Boyfriend just aint gonna cut it. I want more, so I have to be patient.  

I don't even go anywhere to meet anyone so how can I really want a Man if I'm not putting myself out there. For the month of March I'm going to challenge myself to go out at least 4 times. I found some places that I would like to go to that will have the type of men that I would be interested in. If I have to go alone I will. I'm determined to do better with a social life. I used to be a party girl and now I'm just a party dud.                                                                                                      

Warm heart; Cold bed...

I have the biggest heart and yet I only get to share it with close family and friends. I go to bed at night with a warm heart and a cold bed. I don't know that I'm ready to share it with someone every night but I'm just wondering why this damn thing is sooo cold. Sometimes while sleeping I wake up reaching to the other side of the bed. It sounds sad but I laugh at myself because I know very well that there is no one there. I have not had a sleepover with a man in so long that I wouldn't know what to do if he was warming up the left side of my bed.  The song by Trey Songz "Your Side of the Bed" comes in my head while typing this because who knew that there was assigned sleeping in a relationship.

So, now to figure out if I should trade in a warm heart for a cold one just to get a warm bed. NAAHHHH! I will not give up my true self for a man. I want it to come naturally. 

I will continue to keep this warm heart and maybe invest in getting a body pillow and turn it sideways and throw a leg over it. Maybe I will call him Roger. 

I look forward to many a warm nights and my heart to soon melt.

Looking for love in all the wrong places...

I received the weirdest text message this morning. I was in a long distance relationship and he texted me with just four words. 'I need a wife'. I thought that I was going to pass out considering we were planning to get married just last year. We went on a trip to see my son for his high school graduation and it turned out to be the worse trip of my life. The fact that I was with him in the first place makes me question my judgement. Did I just want to be in a relationship? Or did I really love this guy? We knew each other from childhood and he found me on FB and things blossomed from that. We talked on the phone a few times a day. I took a trip to see him. Things weren't the greatest when I was there but we did have some fun. I don't go down the same road twice and I don't ever go back to old relationships. But that still makes me question myself on if I'm looking for love in all the wrong places. Why would I date someone that found me on FB? I have a few exes on FB that I have casual friendships with but no one that I would ever want to date again. Once I say that I'm done with something I am done. He thinks that we should try again but I know that in my heart of hearts that will never happen.

His reasoning for straying away from his feelings is so ridiculous. When you get to a certain age things should be taken into consideration before you make a decision. I mean who seeks out someone that they have not seen in over years and after nine months you flake on them? I don't want to ever be that vulnerable again and put myself out there because I think that I want to be in love.

I will make sure that this journey is thought about. We will see what comes of this but I will never look for love in the wrong place ever again!

The Start of Something Good!

So yes, I've decided to blog about being a single mom and me trying to find love again. I have decided to put myself out there because I feel that is the only way that I will follow up with what I'm doing. I guess I have to be help accountable for the B.S that I think is my dating life.
I haven't been in a relationship since last summer and that was a long distance relationship. This person found me on Facebook and I hadn't seen him since I was 8 years old. The conversations took me way back, to a time where life was simple. I remembered him because of how much he remembered me. Things were good. It was the phone calls and the text messages. I had surgery and he was the one that called and talked to me until the doped me up. It was good. We had so much in common. But then we decided I would fly to see him. It all seemed good until I was actually there and I realized that we were not sexually compatible. It was like watching paint dry. I really could have had a V8. So bad that we had double beds and for the remainder of my stay I slept alone.
I refuse to do this to myself again. I will not and can not subject myself to being in a relationship just because I'm lonely. That is for the birds.
This blog will chronicle my love life or lack there of and my journey through motherhood. I have four children in age ranges from 19 down to 4. I will take my children into consideration while dating but I will not not date because of them. I know that I have to be careful with whom I bring home but I will not bring anyone home. I will use all the sense that the good Lord has given me but I will also do a few things that I wouldn't do.
I can't promise to blog everyday but I will blog every chance that I get and be as truthful as I can be.
I want to thank everyone in advance for reading and taking this journey with me.
WELCOME TO MY LIFE!!!